Sunday, October 08, 2006
ok.. i am so getting pissed again when i thought im learning how to control my anger.. grr.. and its all cos of
her.. i mean.. yeah some people got problem in eng. but noone can actually FAIL right.. i mean.. a person who fails seriously needs help mans.. and compre is so damnit easy.. and
she doesn't need to start on MG being a
high end school.. yes the cutoff point for other schools is 256.. but HELLO.. im affiliated.. and double HELLO.. anyone who doesn't pass eng and lit in sec 1 doesn't get PROmoted but gets DEmoted.. duh.. i mean.. not to say that sam is laoyah and inferior to me but then she doesn't need to drag MG in right.. not my prob she cannot get into the school of her choice.. im not her am i?? im seriously gonna blow it in church oneday if
she continues her behavior.. my cusses are getting lower.. and im controlling my anger.. not bad alrdy right.. **ll.. i alrdy lost it in church.. just cos she dragged leonard into the picture.. the whole story:
after a wonderful youth service we were gonna do the photo taking.. and then
she has to go put her arms arnd becca when i put my arms down cos they were getting sweaty[eew] then not only that but her frigging fat hand has to go block my face... wth lah.. then when i told her to move.. she said to go put my arms arnd leonard.. WTFH.. [see.. with her in teh pic my swear words are coming again] what is her problem mann.. i looked at her in teh eye and said "you dun anyhow say me and leonard can? u say one more time ah.. your gonna regret it"
**ll.. what IS her problem.. im getting more and more pissed by the moment.. teh only thing that comforts me is my potato chips.. and im eating them so frigging fast alrdy.. and teh fact that bio and chem tmr doesn't help
another thing that doesn't help is teh fact that i cannot go youth nxt week.. i gtg for concert rehearsals.. hell.. they're selling teh shirts on that day too!! life seriously sux.. but im getting becca to buy all three shirts for me first.. then i pay her on sunday.. i hope she says yes.. or maybe i ask sam.. whoever lah.. damnit.. and im getting a headache.. wth.. and yes i know how to differenciate[sp?] btw a headache and a migraine when SOME pple can't.. im getting depressed AGAIN.. and i hate it.. hatehatehateit.. it sux to think that youre all alone and noone cares about you.. but i know that GOD cares for me.. even tho others don't and i don't even need a bf to feel loved.. im ok-d with my daily routine.. gotoschool;exam;gohome;eat;study;eat;tv;slp
no need a bf.. and no need to go out.. no need to watch moovie.. or go to kap or go eat with my friends.. i feel so frigging ANTIsocial.. and i hate it. hatehateahateit.. and teh guy that likes me is just a PAIN IN MY ASS.. that doesn't make things easier or better.. right now. another thing comforts me.. that im getting a BRANDSPANKINGNEWPHONE in december.. and its going to be one of the LATEST models.. i dun care how much the frigging phone cost cos mommy alrdy said yes.. so i dun give a damn right now.. i think i'll go study somemore and lust after having a proper social life.. where i actually go to kap; watch movies with my frens and stuff..
ciao
chaR;
2:22 AM
